i spoke too sooon

blessed with beautiful new music ytdy, this weather, feeling like i can again. it’s really something when you let yourself want

ooopdate

i found a box of ceramic pins i made

I made these to let loose and create
i love that about clay, for me i feel free to be impulsive and experimental with forms and objects (to let loose from clean lines and all the roughs that goes into illustration work)

i played a game with myself making these pins, i think i just wanted to test my memory with visualizing images

i would roll out the slab of clay and cut shapes of figures, objects and animals that i pictured in my head~ smooth the shapes and fire them in the kiln when they’re ready. then when they come out all i would see is these blank shapes. painting the actual image felt like improvising what i had set out to create. it kind of felt like making out something from looking at clouds and painting what i think it looks like -

i’ll be putting some up in the shop a little bit at a time~~ i have so many little things from craft show days that i might include as well, a low key no key studio sale not really ♥︎

lately the books i’ve been picking up, flipping to a page, have been telling me, teaching me~ things i needed to know. when you get read by the books you read, waa

ill be updating info on my upcoming shows and releases soon. *update: I updated it*
Thanks for staying with me here,

it’s been hard to keep in touch with anyone these days especially with social media, but i’m learning how to overcome these jolts and trying a little bit everyday— it is so encouraging to read the emails from the low-key sticker giveaway last month (i have some i still have to send out- sry for the wait!) you folks have soft hearts and such a gentle strength with words

a slow pull is what it is, when coming to realize how hard it is to make work that is born from my emotions and feelings when i’m unable to access and make sense of them. it’s been really hard to see myself, but that’s what i’m learning about right now, with all the books and group therapy meetings, what a ride

going to paint some lanterns soon~

the things you find on a usb

most times the sketches are the longest parts.. that and thinking about them all the time.
It feels like living in different minds at once sometimes.
this install was about the feeling of losing yourself

(draft for installation at the Art Gallery of Hamilton - “THIS IS SERIOUS: Canadian Indie Comics” )

“And now, to see what I feel”—- 2019, plywood and acrylic - see final here

p.s. sticker giveaway still on for the month of May (see previous post) thank you to those who sent some beautiful messages ~ they were so thoughtful and loving <3

thanks to 1% talent (ilu) there’s some holographic stickers around—— i’m not sure if anyone follows blogs anymore, but it’s been so nice to make some posts and express my cheese feelings~

what i’m trying to say is if you see this i’ll send a sticker to you :)

please send you mailing address to ness@nesslee.com and i’ll send you one !

to ease my shyness in being emo here, if you say something from the heart i’ll send you both stickers (can be any honest expression he ha)

i have some super old canadian superman stamps and a few rolls of us stamps - it’ll be snail mail, patience can be exciting :0 ? i’ll do everywhere else by snail style, fingers crossed~!

i’ll do this till the end of the month, that’s if anyone sees this * update * I’ll extend this for the rest of May* :)

open

to close

there are so many ways i can and can’t anymore

things staring back

it’s been hard to say anything to no one

“i was born into a world so polite no one ever told the truth about anything”

Drunk with love by Ellen Gilchrist

i woke up hearing this song.. a co worker at the hotel (King) would once and while sing a bit of this to me very publicly at the restaurant in the morning, he has one of those singing voices that can carry so far

https://youtu.be/bv_cEeDlop0

idk why today was so hard

i will produce the most uneventful time lapses

does anything ever send you to a moment in time, like you’re reliving it again?
sometimes its hard to document work. I find I have to do it when i’m ready to go there

in awe of writers, who can find the words-

it’s something i struggle with, often needing time to find them and express them. that’s why drawing has always been a way i can feel like i am speaking what i went through, how i am feeling

to come across written words that help me understand what i have been feeling and going through or just to feel that someone has harnessed those feelings and experiences to find those words and to be able to share,

just so grateful to creatives who put their art out there, it can be so vulnerable + healing

( ty studio ānanda )