that feeling that you get when you need to pop your ears by plugging your nose

or when your ears are muffled, when sounds get blurry

and its leading you on an incline to a familiar dense feeling

it was like i was looking for what it is and all i needed to do was let it sink in and remind you of

this covered feeling of a depth so distant

stiffened collar bone

i think I’m witnessing the beginnings of mourning unfold inside me

it feels like a flower opening in a steady crescendo of a long yawn